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Just a little curly haired boy living, loving, and learning in Hollywood, CA.

It’s Not About Measles


Vaccine: A biological preparation that provides active acquired immunity to a particular disease.

Vaccines are supposed to protect us. They are supposed to keep the germs and diseases away from us and our children. So then why would anyone out there refuse these magic bullets? Because some people have done their research.

Because I said so
We’ve been told that vaccines prevent certain illnesses and that they are needed in order for us all to develop immunity to disease. If doctors are telling us that these injections are needed, then we should listen to them, right? We should listen to them simply because they are doctors and they know best, right?

Many concerned parents do not subscribe to this way of thinking. They have been called the anti-vax parents. They believe it is their right to not vaccinate their children if they so choose. That’s the key word: choice. It is a choice.

What’s the f$&@ing problem?!
Anti-vaxxers have been ridiculed and scolded for their decision not to vaccinate. They’ve been called irresponsible and reckless for exposing other children to their own unvaccinated offspring. But why are they making such a fuss to begin with? Are they just stubborn? Ignorant? Are they all just anti-government kooks spouting incessant nonsense? Umm…no.

The Facts
Anti-vaxxers believe they are doing what is right for their children. They have done their research and have found several questionable ingredients in our precious vaccines. On the Centers for Disease Control and Prevention website cdc.gov, it lists ingredients commonly used in vaccinations such as formaldehyde, which is a chemical used in home building products. It is also found in embalming fluid, which is used to preserve dead bodies.

Another vaccine ingredient is Thimerasol. This is a mercury-containing preservative. Umm…enough said. Mercury?! Why is there mercury being injected into our bodies?!
The CDC claims it is used as a preservative to prevent certain bacteria growth and it has been removed from most vaccines except certain influenza vaccines and even then, it is only used in trace amounts.
How about we use it in no amounts!

Parents are concerned that vaccine ingredients such as these are potentially harmful to them and their children. Some even go as far as to say that vaccines cause birth defects, Autism, and SIDS (Sudden Infant Death Syndrome). I don’t know if vaccines cause these problems and the medical industry claims that there is no link between the two, but why put these chemicals into our bodies at all?

Yes I’m sure these chemicals have their uses and doctors have their reasons for adding them to our vaccines, but isn’t it better safe than sorry? If I had to choose between having formaldehyde, mercury, and blood from a cow fetus being put into my body or nothing, I would choose nothing. And that is what these parents are choosing to do because they have a choice.

Many of these rebellious parents are being pressured by the medical industry to either vaccinate their children or they will be taken off doctor’s lists and refused care. They are being barred from certain schools unless they vaccinate their children.

The latest Disneyland incident involving Measles is just a symptom of what is really wrong with this system. It is being made to seem that if you don’t vaccinate your kid then they will automatically get sick with the Measles or some other disease and they will infect every other child too. This is ludicrous!

It’s supposed to be a choice and people shouldn’t be condemned for choosing not to put potentially harmful chemicals, no matter how small the amount, into their bodies or the bodies of their children.

It’s about authority
These people are being reprimanded for having questions. How dare they?! How dare they want the best for their children! How dare they challenge authority in any way!

And that’s what this is really about. Authority. If people start to question and challenge authority, then authority begins to lose its power. The medical industry begins to lose its power. And those guys are supposed to be right about everything. They are supposed to have our best interest at heart. They are supposed to tell us the truth. But what if the truth is they don’t know everything? What if they don’t know what is best for each and every individual person?

What is right for you?
I won’t say that the medical industry is evil and out to get everyone, but I will ask you to not be afraid to question them. Doctors know a lot, but I will ask you to always look for alternatives if something doesn’t sit well with you. And I will ask you to always do what is right for you, whatever that may be.

Facts are important, but it’s even more important that you have all of the facts. And remember, we were given intuition for a reason. If we weren’t meant to think for ourselves we wouldn’t have the ability to begin with.

The facts are out there. We just have to decide whether we want to know about them or not.

Resolutionize A New Year


I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I want out of life. It’s a new year which usually causes people to re-evaluate their lives. We look back at our previous year and frown at all the things we didn’t accomplish. We worry that yet another year has gone by without us ever really noticing it. There are still so many things we want to do, but haven’t gotten around to yet. A new year seems like the perfect remedy for that. It’s a chance to start all over again. A chance to wipe clean everything that was wrong with yesterday so that today is all shiny and new and “fresh with no mistakes in it”.

The way we were
Technically, we can do this at any moment in our lives, but New Years always seems like a good excuse to change and improve ourselves. It’s exciting because everyone seems to be doing it at the same time. There’s an energy in the air full of resolutions and hope. People everywhere begin to believe they can make their dreams come true, even if only for a moment. That’s important. It’s also important to remember that we don’t really need to know what’s going to happen next for us.

Something blissful this way comes
In a weird way I’ve always known what I wanted to do with my life. My wants have changed several times, but I always had some sort of plan to get where I wanted to go. First I wanted to be an artist, then an actor, then I was sure I was going to be a writer. Now I have no idea what I want. This made me feel lost for awhile and terrified that I didn’t have a plan. I felt like a failure and that I was letting people and myself down. But now I realize that I don’t need to know what my next chapter will be. I never could have predicted the things that happened to me last year. I met my half sister for the first time. She moved in with me and now I’ll know her for the rest of my life. I went to Chicago for the first time and got to see Lady Gaga in concert. And I started this blog. This little blog that came to me one day because I needed an outlet, a way of expressing myself to the world.

There’s no way I could’ve predicted any of those things would happen and I won’t be able to predict what’s in store for me this upcoming year. But that’s okay. I don’t want to know. That’s part of the adventure, the fun. It’ll be a bit scary at times of course. We’re taught to plan and make goals, but sometimes it’s better to just let life introduce itself to you.

Let’s Resolutionize
I don’t know about you, but I’m going to try my darnedest to relax and just float my way through this year. As long as I can make rent, put food on my table, am in reasonably good health, and have people who care about me I think I’ll be just fine. Those are all the tools I need. The rest of my life will slowly introduce itself to me and being the polite little boy that I am, I’ll just have to introduce myself to it too.

Enjoy the beginning of your New Year, New Life, New Adventure.




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Is Social Media Ruining Our Lives?


A girl I am friends with on Facebook recently announced that she has made the decision to delete the Facebook app and forego social media altogether. She claims “We spend so much time worrying about other people that we don’t take time to really improve on ourselves” so she’s decided to go and find the “real” her. Here is her announcement:


She’s certainly not the first person to take such a drastic action. Many people have deleted their accounts. I myself have often toyed with the idea of cutting social media out of my life, then had a panic attack so I quickly changed my mind.

Many have never even had social media accounts to begin with and are the happier for it. So the question is: Would our lives really benefit from deleting Facebook and social media for good?

Does Facebook lead to unhappiness?
Studies show that people check their Facebook accounts an average of 14 times a day. That’s an awful lot of time being spent looking at other people’s lives instead of living our own. There are so many other activities we could be doing, but instead we are choosing to compare our lives to others all day. We’ve become such a voyeuristic society, watching what other people do instead of taking time to improve our own lives. We spend hours reading negative comments which then makes us feel bad. And we seem to be permanently glued to our devices like drug addicts, causing us to lose sleep, which can lead to memory loss.

We see things on Facebook and instagram that other people have and we wish we had it too. We see people who seem to be living perfect lives and have perfect relationships and we begin to get thirsty for everything they have. This envy leads to drama, and drama leads to depression, and depression leads to… the dark side. But is social media really to blame?


We have a choice
No one is forcing us to check our social networks as often as we do or even at all. We have always had a choice. But it doesn’t have to be between using social media and not using social media. It doesn’t have to be between a good option and a bad option. Most things in this world are neither good or bad; they just are. And social media is no exception. It is nothing more than a tool. Whether it’s a useful tool or a hinderance is up to you.

When I’m already feeling low and insecure, I can always count on Facebook and instagram to make me feel even worse. I am reminded of the relationship I’m not in, of the hard washboard abs I don’t have, and the expensive schools I didn’t go to. But this isn’t social media’s fault. This is something only I can mend.

For every person having a negative response to social media, there is someone having a positive one. Instead, they are finding things to laugh about. They are being inspired by quotes posted or being happy for others’ successes. It’s all how you decide to look at things.

Get some perspective
So take a moment to see what your situation is like. Do you find yourself being more excited and inspired the more you use social media or more depressed?


Maybe taking a social media vacation is the answer for you. It’s easy to blame Facebook, or technology, or other people. But nothing really has meaning unless we give it meaning. So why not give it a positive one?

Choose to appreciate the positive aspects of social media. And if you just can’t, then take break until you can. Choose to use the social network in moderation. Learn to see it as a tool instead of the enemy.


Because technology and social media are here to stay and will be a part of our lives in some form or another. So we might as well all get along.

Vision Board


I’ve been wanting to make a vision board for a long time now. I’ve made one in the past, but it’s been awhile so I thought what better time than the present?

A vision what?
What’s a vision board you ask? A vision board is a tool to help you figure out what you want your life to look like. Most people cut and paste pictures and quotes from magazines onto a large poster board. You can put whatever you want on the board. This is your chance to dream and dream big without anyone there to tell you that you’re being silly or that those things will never happen for you. It’s personal and is best shared only with people you trust.

I tend to have more luck when I “Speak things into existence” as my sister says so I thought I’d share my vision board with all of you. I didn’t feel like spending money to actually buy a board and since we are in the digital age I thought a digital vision board would suffice. I divided my board into the areas of my life that I want to focus and improve on:

1. Love


I want a man like Garrett Hedlund. His good looks and Midwestern values make him an ideal candidate for a husband, but don’t let that pretty face fool you. He’s intelligent, respectful, strong, and isn’t afraid to be naughty once in awhile. And that voice!

He has a mystery to him that makes me want to know more. He is always thinking, but somehow doesn’t sweat the little things in life and prefers to make the most of what he’s been given. Ahh take me now, Garrett.

2. Career


I want to be a writer. I am a writer, but I want the luxury of being able to write about whatever I want and get paid for it. I currently write for a massage website and am grateful for it, but my dream is to be Carrie Bradshaw. How amazing would it be to get paid to write about all the sex you’re having? All the messed up relationships, heartbreaks, and life lessons? To be able to work from home and have copious amounts of free time would be my ideal job. Then I’d have the time and money to travel wherever and whenever I want. New York, call me.

3. Fashion


“I’m evolving my look”, as Carrie once said. As I get older, I want to experiment with fashion. I want to try bolder styles and play with androgyny. We are living in a time when people can basically wear whatever they want, but me in a full length gown is still a daunting notion. I want to blur the lines between masculine and feminine and have been shopping in both the men’s and women’s sections lately. Women’s clothes are more creative, fit me better, and are vastly more affordable. I’m excited to evolve and to continue to try new things simply because I can.

4. Home


I love my little studio apartment here in Hollywood, but this is a vision board and improvements are always welcome. These pictures represent how I want my place to feel. I want my home to feel modern, uncluttered, and simple. It is my sanctuary, my temple. It is my home and I want it to feel warm and inviting so that others will feel at home there too when they visit. I want a big bed that will make me and my man never want to leave it. Get back under the covers, Garrett! Who said you could put your clothes back on?!

It’s up to you
These are your dreams. Don’t let anyone, especially yourself, tell you that you can’t make them come true. A vision board is a wish list, so make some wishes and don’t censor yourself. Give yourself permission to want what you want.

Remember a vision board is only a tool. It won’t make things happen for you all on its own. But it will help you pinpoint what you want and how you want to feel. Then you’ll be inspired to make things happen for yourself. Because you can’t get what you want until you actually know what you want.

Oh, and I’ve heard it’s always best to tell yourself and the universe that you want all of these things or something better. Our imaginations, powerful as they are, can only imagine so many possibilities. Don’t get hung up on too specific of an idea. Instead focus on the feeling of that idea and let the universe manifest it in whatever way it thinks is most beneficial to you. Now, make a wish.